undying bliss

Clock says it’s 3:01am and I’ve been staring at my monitor for quite some time,thinking where to start. There’s just so much thoughts in my head but I don’t really know where to begin. I was planning to make another surprise for her coz last year I gave her flowers and cake but this year I’m hella broke and I for a change I want to express to everyone all my sentiments for this very amazing person. She may not have the chance to read this but atleast everyone will know how special she is. 

During my teenage years, I don’t really have a perfect relationship with my mom. It’s like we’re in a LOVE-HATE rapport. Today we’re bestfriends,tomorrow she’s my worst enemy. There was a point that we didn’t talked for months. Simple conversation ends up in arguments. We have this parallel mindsets,it don’t just meet, that’s why most of the times we clash at each other. I always complain about her being a nagger and OCD. Usually I neglect her words and just take her for granted. I was building a world of my own where I think my principles are always right . And yes I do fight back.  I have even cursed her countless times. I wasn’t the most noble daughter for short.

But as I was aging up I realized how ungrateful I become despite her selfless efforts. And yes just like any moms she have her fair share of imperfections and lapses, but that doesn’t make her worthless. She may have hurt me a lot of times but I know it doesn’t equate with the constant love that I received from day1 til now and I know it’s growth will never stop. I don’t deserve such unconditional love but still, she was given to me…..God knows how sorry I am for acting stupid at times. When I’m losing my temper I usually shout at her, telling her that I want to have another mom…… She don’t deserve that :(

She’s actually a wonder-mom, she’s working non-stop doing endless chores despite her not-so-healthy condition. She wakes up so early just to make sure there’s breakfast before us. She makes simple dishes taste extra special. She tells me I’m beautiful whenever I feel insecure. She cried along with me when I had my worst heart break. I just kept on messing my things and she keeps on cleaning our house. I kept on hurting her but she keeps on forgiving me. She supports me when I’m in love. She adores even my smallest achievements. She keeps on telling me how proud she is to have me. She makes me laugh in the most annoying way. She even watched twilight with me(she’s team edward,I’m team jacob). She may not be the best but she’s worth having.

 I know that she’s growing old and I can’t have her forever and years from now she would just be a memory that I would want to have back again. That’s why everyday I tell her that I love her, everyday I give her a kiss, coz I would hate it if it’s gonna be too late to do those things again …..

All I pray is for her is a good health……

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Random facts about her :

• She has a crush on John Cena & Eminem. 
• Bipolar-ish 
• She loves our ugly dog so much! (that’s not our dog in the picture)
• She craves for California Maki
• sleeps early and wakes up early too
• Have a BB but doesn’t know how to use it
• EMO :]]]
• wants to learn how to do the dougie (kulit kaayo!)
• laughs at korny jokes
• and LAbLAbLab masyado ni Nica  ♥

Mader Pinky salamat sa tanan, love kaayo taka!

” Babe, I’m starting to love you. What should I do?”

….well at first, I felt like I was in tranq.

then I was like…..

I’m sorry to be such a bummer but the rest of our conversation that night will have to remain between just the two of us. hahaha! 

But honestly, this guy made me stop singin’ “how to love” no more. And if anyone thinks I’m being korny and shit, well go piss that shit out of you! This feeling is just so fetch!

It’s already 330 AM and I’m still alive like this sleepless cockroach that just flew over me. As much as I desire dreamland so much, it refuses my entry and now I’m stuck in this world of procrastinating activities. SAY WHAT??!  But srsly this insomnia is such a cruel joke! And the usual way to murder my time is this! fvckyeah this! LOL 

since I’m turning 21 this month, here are 21 senseless random facts. 

1.) I’m six months single already (and counting….)

2.) My face have uneven skintone. ( But my fave concealer does the trick!)

3.) I’ll rather do the laundry than clean the house.

4.) When I sing in my head I sound so good, but when open my mouth it’s the other way around. ( how sad T_T )

5.) I have a lot of physical insecurities. 

6.) I fantasize Chris Evans. I usually pray to see him in my dreams. (cpt.america)

7.) You can take me out on a date at SanPedro st. but make sure it’s gonna be streetfoods buffet.

8.) I write poems out of love. 

9.) I used to be a student council officer, dancer and a first aid responder way back in highschool.

10.) I was dumped and rejected a couple of times already.

11.) I started reading harrypotter when I was still in 4thgrade, then 2rdyear highschool, I finished all 7books. (I read order of the phoenix twice,cover to cover)

12.) I still draw sticks in solving math problems up to now. (I took trigo in college twice) 

13.) Sometimes I deprive myself to eat just to control myself from gaining weight.

14.) I HAVE SUPER LOW ALCOHOL DOSAGE. I turn red like hellboy. 

15.) When I go to clubs/bars I usually order icetea or juice, for the entire night. ( my closest friends can prove that )

16.) I make fun of people who have messed up grammar or crazy pronunciation.

17.) Sad songs can make me cry.

18.) There are only 4 of us in our house, but there are 7 toothbrush and I just don’t know why.

19.) I become ridiculously korny and an instant poet when I’m inlove.

20.) I have mentally murdered a lot of people already. 

21.) I don’t know when will I graduate. BUT I KNOW I WILL :]

now I will sleep ZZzzz :]